Loosing Control

In most, if not all of my past relationships, I have almost always been in charge and I got used to it.

Its taking a lot from me not to be in control anymore. "Wives, obey and respect your husbands" says the Word.

"Okay, okay", I tell myself, until something happens or hubby-to-be (HTB) does something that I can not control and then my mouth starts to itch. I want to say how I feel very badly. Often times, I say great good things, just at the wrong time. My last post mentioned that part of proverbs that says "a fools lips cause arguments/fights and his mouth brings a beating", well, often times my mouth has brought about looks that could almost kill.

HTB told me once that if one were to be judged by looks, I would pass as a super sweet person, which of course I am until I get pissed or burned in some sort of way. I can get really bad with words, not necessarily insults, just plain facts that can hurt.

Well, I have concluded that there is absolutely one thing that I can be in control of! My tongue and actions. I hate to say sorry too many times because it begins to loose its worth.

I hope that with time I'll get used to the fact that I can not always be in control. Its time to let go and let God always & HTB sometimes. :) Besides, if I am in control all the time, where does God come in.

Pray for me y'all!

I will be starting an A-Z of the proverbs woman soon....watch this space.


That Proverbs Woman!!!